I doubt anyone heard me! I want to cut everything off my body...every inch of fat, every inch of skin, everything! I don't want anything to be left of me! I don't want any part of me anymore because I am too disgusting and repulsive to look at!

Do you know what it does to someone to know that they are nothing to anybody and nothing to look at and nothing to even know? Do you know the pain I'm going through? The panic, the rage, the hate, the pain...everything! I don't even know why I stopped when I hung myself 5 years ago! Men are terrible creations! They are insensitive, liars, cruel, deceitful....I don't know anymore!