Thanks Gus for your reply. I appreciate your input, and would like to get to know you, too. I'm feeling a lot of pressure to send the contract, as the guy wants it ASAP, and the other plow guys never called me back. I called the senior center handyman, who also didn't get back to me. Depression and through-the-roof anxiety make it hard to organize myself, and figure out next steps to my problems. I don't know where to find the high school kids to shovel cheaply, that gets suggested to me by friends. Seems no one wants to do anything cheaply.

There are so many pressures falling on my head. I don't know what is appropriate or not to share at PC. Even here, as with my friends, I feel bad for complaining, talking about my problems. I don't want to be a burden.

Today, my dog cost me a fortune in a behavior consult and treatment for HIS anxiety. I don't have the money, or energy for the training he needs. But, either I do it, or re-home him, which also feels terrible.