Echoes...... Your comments on "rage" stuck a note.......thinking back when AJ was small..."before the divorce" and then "during and after the divorce"...AJ has seen his father rage and be threatening towards me when he was young. He even jumped on his dad's back trying to get his dad off of me when he was in the 4th grade....He's seen his dad cuss and flip out at me several times before the divorce....

Even tho AJ saw this, we "had" always were close.....He never vented his anger at me.. During the separation AJ was very withdrawn and he needed someone to talk to and that is when he started therapy. Odd thing is I always thought he started therapy right after the separation, when he was in the 4th grade. Turns out after reading some paperwork that he started therapy when in the 6th grade... Seems I lost two years somewhere, but am thinking it is due to being overwhelmed. Not even a fog, there is nothing for the two years...... geesh my own thread triggers memories... will take the therapy years to the therapy section.

Ha... keeping on focus is hard.. I don't know what I am trying to say right now . lol
When in doubt, time to stop and think and be quiet...