hi free, they say alcoholism is a progressive disease. even if someone stops drinking, if they start back up the intensity of the drinking will be like they never stopped. that's prob why you have the craving now and not before. your alcoholism/disease has progressed.
i'm sober some years now and your outpatient treatment will help you a lot/i did it. i encourage you to try AA as well.
with the amount of time i have sober i don't want to experiment with that fact cause it wouldn't be pretty if i drank again.   
keep us posted on how u're doing. we care. 
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