so, im having a problem with an ex. probably like a lot of people, i went through a terrible break up. if you have read my posts before, you know the story, i'm sure. first relationship. i loved her more than she loved me. she cheated on me. she took advantage of me. verbal/emotional abuse. the list goes on. vie been through a lot of therapy in order to "let go" i have worked hard to get to where i am today - stable, happy, active again, some sort of self confidence. but of course, i miss her. of course i think about her. she may have treated me like dirt but she did do some good things for me and it's hard to completely forget about those things, even though i know how messed up she is. well, i have gotten to the point to where i can ignore her messages. she can only contact me via email. (she's blocked everywhere else.) today though, she texted me using a free site. it said "the greatest pain from love is loving someone you can never have." my ex does this a lot, she sends messages to me, out of the blue, that are random and sincere but then when i acknowledge them - she reverts back to being mean and controlling and i essentially give her my power.

i guess i'm having a hard time. i know that she says these things to upset me. i am returning to college sunday (where i met her/she lives) and she knows this, we haven't spoken in almost a month, and whenever i don't talk to her - she comes back trying so hard to get to me. my counselor thinks she suffers from narcissistic personality disorder. i know not to fall for her again or the things she says - but i miss her.