I am falling into depression and irritability lately. Seems as though things keep happening to me, over and over and I'm tired of dealing with it all. The latest is a co-worker backstabbing me yesterday (I'm a home health nurse). She completely contradicted an admission I did on a patient 3 days prior and called the director of nursing trying to get me in trouble. The facts are I did nothing wrong and did not get in trouble, but now I know she's out to get me, so to speak. I was asked to be the admissions nurse, she wasn't and apparently she's jealous.

Anyways, I let a job, bankruptcy and other things get to me before in 09', the stress was enormous and way too much for me to bare. I did not know I was bipolar at this time and did not have a psychiatrist. I reached out to my husband, but was not taken serious when I told him I thought I might hurt myself. Unfortunately, I lost my grip on reality, overdosed and went to bed. I was found 7 hours later in a coma. I spent 4 days in ICU on a ventilator.

I now know that if it gets "that" bad again, I need to go to an ER and tell them to get me help, because...I will hurt myself. So, if it gets "that" bad for you, then please make sure you're in a safe environment, regardless of what your family thinks or says.