Rainbow Hugs to you. I am sorry that you are feeling so blah. I understand the feeling of being detatched and distant. Could Echoes be on to something here? Maybe that is worth thinking about a little. When I get really angry at t then it just turns to disappointment and that blah feeling.

I also liked what Tree said about the high/low t relationship. And if I could figure out how to multiquote I would use it! When those intense feelings are tamed down and the anticipation of email responses are gone it can feel really different. And not in a good way. I know for me I either feel big or I don't feel much at all. I hope you can soothe yourself because trying to tolerate the blah is not fun at all.