Jen~
Your not going nuts. Your just so stressed beyond what your body and mind can handle hon. Life is so hard sometimes. There are no easy answers to anything . What I would hope you could do sometime soon here is to try to find a clinic that has a sliding scale fee so you can get back into therapy. Most of the time those clinics I think have pdocs too that can treat you . And also they may be able to give you your meds for free. I know when hubby is laid off from work ,mine gives me my meds at no cost ( just my antidepressant and mood stabilizer ) IF you need help looking into it I'd be happy to help you. You need to know you have someone to talk to. And who can help you out too. Know that you can always talk to me or pm me . I am here for you ok? Do this for you first and then for your family.

Love ya~
Hugz~
Bethy