Hi. How are you? Sounds like your guy is controlling u to the extent that u do not feel able to leave. Thats not good...

Can you talk to a community worker? Maybe to the doctor?

I m worried about the thoughts u have of hurting yourself. I think there is a lot of anxiety. It must be treated. It can be treated. And your future can be better! There are ppl who can help. But you must talk to them.

Remember that his accusations are sick. And meant to control you. Where there is no trust there is no love. I know it hurts and its sad bit with help u can go through it. No ond deserves to live in fear and pain. And you are so honest. Please talk to someone. Hugs x