Just talked to the crisis counselor. I've decided to pack the few things and my cats when he is not around and return to my apartment. I will leave a short note with no details (counselor said not to write anything that he can throw back at me later). I have no car but I will have to get a friend to pick me and the cats and my few things I have here home. It may even mean staying here for a day or two until I have the safest plan in place.

This man is not physically abusive but he's not ready to have a relationship with an adult (except for maybe her and even though she is 60, I still don't consider her an adult).

I don't have a car, so I will need the help of a friend with a car.

I'll be checking in often for feedback and support. My tears have dried for now. I have taken the prescribed amount of my anxiety medicine and I have my cats with me.

I decided to leave because I deserve better. He acts like every off the wall bizzare thing he tells me is normal. Maybe in this relationship with this woman, that is normal. Guy is totally preoccupied with sex. Even if we are not having it, he's had his hands down his pants which makes me very uncomfortable. I just cleaned the kitchen from a late dinner and a file folder came down that wasn't mine when I moved the coffee and the sugar canisters.

Seems I'm not the only one who's had a problem trying to have a relationship with him...countless leters to his ex, in addition to women he's slept with inbetween, oh yes, and his best male friend who's married. I met the woman and she is torn up inside over it and I don't blame her. Neither one of them feel bad because they said "it was just sex".

I will keep you all updated...those of you who could stomach the depravity of this man's concept of love and sex and everything that it entails.

Thank you all for reading this and encouragement and support would still be greatly appreciated.