WTF like I am tired tired of life tired of everything like sometimes I care and I am conscious of my scars and everything like I am a 21 year old college student I party I like to dress cute and everything sometimes I just dnt care what I wear and my scars show like now its winter and its not an issue so much I am just tired of hurting tried of life to be perfectly honest I shouldn't have to keep doing this self destructing cutting throwing up thriving to be perfect in the eyes of others and for myself especially myself and I dnt know whats wrong just tired of everything the ups and downs of everything like having to explain everytime someone see my scars i shld just be like mind your ****ing business which i do in a polite matter i suppose but do ppl really want to know are they that concerned like seriously or are they ****ing nosey little bastards like oh i have scars because i can't cope with my emotions and that i was molested twice once between 4-5 and again with my mother's husband molesting me from 11-17 and i seen and did things that a child shouldnt know about i am just too thru with everything what do i have to live for i feel exhausted just too done..........i want answers for everything and i know thats impossible everything can't be explained like for me 1+1=2 it makes sense and for some reason the answer comes out to be 3 every ****ing time i like feeling emotionless to be honest to feel is to hurt and to hurt is to have a reaction to those feelings i dnt like feeling so overwhelmed with everything........ugh this was a waste of space and time sorry to bother everyone with my b/s just needed to vent fml