It sounds like you have worked hard to recognize and deal with your emotions as they come up. I think that is all we can do; whether they are unconscious, limbic/hormonal responses or based on patterns we learned in our childhood and later find not useful. I don't see anything alarming at all in your story; but rather feel you are due congratulations for figuring out what you wanted/needed for yourself and going to get it. It took me many years of therapy and outside help to figure those things out.