Here I sit all alone,but not. Feeling seperated, feeling weight on my shoulders and not knowing what I need to do next. I am moving into a new house in a couple of weeks. I had to draw on my strong self to come to my aid. I have so much to do and can't figure out how to do it. Like right at this moment I am having to wipe the steady stream of tears that keep running down my face. I can't cut them off. I have such overwhelming sadness and fright. I also realize I have no real family support. My daughter is the only one who really understands, but we can't bother her, for it will trigger her, and then she will become undone. She has her own issues. She is doing so well now. I can't let her know how I am really feeling. The holidays are bad for all of us. So here I sit in my dark hole, no light , nothing to embrace. My partner is sick with end stage Lyme disease and Multiple Sclerosis. She barley functions on a day to day level. I am there for her 24/7 but who will be there for me? No one.....