I'm sorry to hear you are so alone. Do you not have a friend you trust or a T to talk to?

I do understand your feelings, I isolate and have no friends...recently lost my T and was feeling much as you are now, 3 days ago. I somehow got through it and hope you do as well. If you need someone to listen or anything, feel free to pm me, I will try my best =)

Take care of yourself as much as you can

--BP