Lilith,
I'm sorry everything is so hard and lonely for you right now. With losing a loved one and getting ready to move in a few weeks, your stress must be off the charts. After you've had your well-deserved cry, I would try to shift to thinking mode. Make a list of all the things you need to do, and start doing some of those tasks. Try to break them into as small tasks as possible. You can do it!!

Keep us posted.

Jane - Oz