Hello

I am responding because you asked for support, and I am listening, and I do care, and I am sorry.
I don't have much to offer other than what people have said. To be honest, it is hard for me not to be judgemental, because I just want you to be okay and contact with this man is not at all good for you in any way, iMHO.

However, having said that, I am not in your shoes, and cannot feel exactly what all of this means to you. I just want you to now how much I admore that you are lloking at change and that you are taking steps to improve your life. You deserve SO much more and hopefully you will realize this.

So much for trying not to sound judgemental.. but in no way, in my mind, is this man a "Keeper."