I feel she doesn't truly understand how it feels being stuck and trapped.

I think I may try and gather together a few words together to try and explain how tough things are and hope that it helps. I'm not holding my breath.

I trust my therapist but whether I believe she knows exactly what she is doing is a different matter. In the past when I've brought up the need to feel as though i'm moving forward and asked how long I'm likely to continue she has simply told me it's complicated and she can't predict but mentioned that I have changed since starting. I am willing to do what needs to be done to move forward...but I need to start seeing some concrete payback from it all because I am getting demoralised.

I'm exhausted from dreading water.