I get that and thank-you again. I understand that she is not delusional every minute of every day. As with anything, there is always another side of a story. Thankfully and largely inpart because of this forum, I have made the decision to move forward and abandon the idea that there needs to be an answer. There are far to many questions that answers don't exist for. My first step is understanding that my need for logic is illogical. Ryask told me that I need to learn to love myself again. She is right, I have lost all my self love. I think I have done a serious injustice to those who suffer from BP, I have tagged my wife as BP and attempt to use that as an answer and excuse. While she is BP, it doesn't give her an excuse and it doesn't mean that I have to be a victim.