Stolly

I can relate to the pain. What a horrible predicament to find yourself in.

It's great that you're in therapy! I hope that you are able to find some answers to your questions. It takes time though. These are huge events occurring in your life. Really, life is pretty depressing for a lot of people in the world now. These are real hard times. You can assure yourself that you aren't alone in that area, if it gives you some comfort.

I think that it will take some time for you to come to terms with the world as it is now, before you feel some sense of normalcy in the world. Nature has been my biggest sense of relief in my world. Things have been upside down too many times for me to count, but my relief comes in seeing life go on. The birds, the trees, flowers, oceans, rivers, etc. Thinking about those things brings me a sense of peace. Even in the craziest times ~ and I remind myself of that fact whenever my mood is so low I think about self-sabotage. Nature brings me around.

That's my personal experience with the misery of the end of my marriage. Life does go on. My ex and I have 2 young girls together, which requires regular communication. A big stress at times, and sadness. But life continues to go on.

Gentle hugs to you Stolly. You're in my thoughts.