I know exactly how you feel. Stopping SI is a goal for me this year too. I'm not really into resolutions either but I'm calling it that, maybe it'll add a little motivation not to. All I can say is take it a day at a time, even a minute at a time if you have to. The feeling you get later when you look back even to earlier that day and realize you got through it without SI helps more than SI itself sometimes. I came very close to SI last night and didn't, and I'm damn proud of that lol. So just take it a day at a time, and remember I'm a hug machine if needed Good luck