Oh Jexa I've missed you soooo much! I was really excited to see you post. I know you are taking a break still but I wanted to jump in and say Hi.

It sounds like quite a fiasco that your t was involved in. I am not sure what advice I can give you but I do know that for you this is definately a big deal and something that will affect your therapy if you do not discuss it with her. It reminds me of your boss at work and how shady he is.

First off you said it is not your business, but it is. It will most certainly affect the outcome of your working alliance with new t. It is also a very sensitive issue for you since this is what you are going to graduate school for. It is public knowlege and I bet your new t knows you well enough by now to know that you are one smart cookie who will for sure check on the history of the person you have hired to care for and guide you. So with that said I think it is imparitive that you talk to her about it.

Ok #2. My t is the clinical director at the clinic and I know that he deals with a lot of administrative issues. For instance two t's were all of a sudden just gone from there and even though I had nothing to do with them I was well aware that they did not practice there anymore. I questioned my t if he had fired them and of course he did not disclose anything but said one had left after the other on her own will. So I came to the conclusion that he fired the one and the other didn't agree and left. Well it bothered me because it made me feel nervous that they would just up and let t's go and what about their clients? Didn't they worry about how that might affect them? And would my t just up and leave me? Did they say goodbye? etc. ect..

So t reassured me that they do think long and hard about those decisions and really make sure that those clients are taken care of the best way that they can in those situations. And that he wasn't going anywhere.

The reason I tell you this is because part of me was relieved that t was the so called "grown up" and had to deal with all of these things but I did not need to worry about them. He would take care of them and it was not to burden me. He was there to take care of my needs. I also felt like oh my gosh, he has so much stuff to take care of. But then I went right back to it's ok he can handle it. So maybe you could just let her be the grown up t that she is supposed to be and you could settle into a role of receiving (one that I know you are not used to). You know, the child role, where you don't have to worry about all that. Pretty soon you will be in the other spot but not right now and not right here. Just let her take care of you. It sounds like so far she has done a pretty good job at it.

I am glad to hear from you Jexa! Come back when you can ok? Take care, peace, and !