OMG OmG OmG OMG
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sorry that's just kind of how I feel right now, i wasted all night Not getting anything done that I should have, (I did ONE article), and frankly, WHATEVER!!!!

So I'm supposed to HAVE BEEN writing it for some hours now & IT SHOULD BE DONE and liek I could have slept,right? that would hqave made some sense!Q!!! at least!!!!! but NO!!!! last night too, and the night before maybe??? same stupid thing

okay i need to slow down.

here's what set me off tonight i guess.

1) my friend called me paranoid! and i told her i was NOT and gave her reasons! i'll just have to ask you to trust me, they made sense, because it would be too frustrating to go through them again. then she tried to tell me how she's supportive.

2) THIS SITE APPEARED ON ONE OF MY BROWSER TABS, ON THE MANIA QUIZ, very funny universe, I ignored it for a long time b/c really WAS doing research, it was kind of funny that tab came up, but then I thought why not fill it out, because I KNEW i wasn't manic, so it would just be fun to do for a few minutes and then the thing said 67 Severely Manic, and that was NOT TRUE, then I started thinking what if it's right, I'm not "manic" but it's true I haven't slept - whatever, I'm just MAD.

What is wrong with me??????
All I want is to get some things done, without getting off to something different and spending hours on that because I'm SURE it's going to be the key to the whole thing! - and then, now, it's 6 am, and I am screwed, and my friend thinks I'm crazy and so does that quiz maybe I am, and I shouldn't be on here because I have work to do!!!!!

I know why people can't stand me.

and, haha, now you do too.

sorry for all the (whatever), I don't know,

thanks.
jDots