I've discussed it a bit with my T, and I think she understands how much this is hurting me. She's trying to help me not be so hard on myself. And naturally to learn the necessary skills.
I wish I could just be confident and happy within my own company.
And when I hear the word 'care' - it really kind of triggers me. It's something I just to feel and believe so badly.
Sorry about my little pity party...