1: Acting like I am okay is all I really know. It has been my response to every hardship I have faced in my life, having never been told it is okay to feel or express any emotions at all.

2: That no matter what I still have myself. Trust in myself can lead to being able to trust others. If I am confident and trust myself, then it will be easier to open up to the help that is being offered to me.

3. That sometimes forgiveness should not even be considered, some things should be left unsaid, and some problems left alone. I got rid of the person who caused me such hurt. It is not in my nature to forgive and forget, perhaps that is best for now. I do not wish to seek closure, only make sure that she does not end up in my life again.

I feel like I’m wasting my life trying to get rid of something that I never will be able to stop.

yes I am still in therapy. It is harder to find time to go, and when I do it doesn’t really seem worth it.