I have been right there with you. I am still working on meds, but I think we are getting somewhere. The most important thing right now is to make sure you are safe. Second, call your p-doc and see if you can get a sooner appointment. Hopefully your p-doc works with you. I have found that my p-doc working with me helps me get through a hard time because I know she is on my side. Also, I rely on my therapist who is a constant calm voice and reality check when I need it.