I have a really good memory, but sometimes I forget a lot of what we talk about. I can summarize what we've talked about going back maybe 4 or 5 months, but after that, everything else runs together. However, I can remember specific details of visits we've had at crucial times in my life...such as the session 2 days after my father died, and the last visit we had before I moved.

Nowadays I really wish I would've written down notes of all my time with T, there would be almost 10 years worth. Part of me thinks it would be fun to go back and read all the different things she's said, little stories, or my own observations that I've long since forgotten; they would be like little gifts. But then part of me thinks it might be painful, and might feed the clinginess to her that I'm trying to control right now. When I sent her my written feelings about my attachment to her about a month or so ago, one section was full of little vignettes in therapy that I managed to remember, like little quotes of hers. So I have managed to remember a decent bit, I guess.