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Originally Posted by rapidcycla
i am a keeper of secrets. My family does not know about my bipolar (i dont live at home, im a grownup  )
My poor younger brother has struggled with anxiety and not being able to sleep for twelve months now (hes being treated for PTSD after a car accident) and my younger brother has said he is bipolar (too). Seems like we have a theme running here.
Am i letting my family down by not sharing my diagnosis??? (my partner does know my diagnosis, but doesnt know much about the condition.
Also i have never ever told anyone how suicidal i get (at minimum four times a year) when my deepest longest depressions hit. when they hit i make my plans, and struggle not to impusively act on them. I have two small children. Normally i have my responsibilty to them to keep me from considering this way out . But sometimes i convince myself they are better off alone. Should i tell my partner? My friends? Obviously i should tell my doc but im not seeing her now. |
Hi rapidcycle, I'm not a professional but I do know what its like from the partners perspective. Your partner obviously loves you and if its genuine, he is going to understand. In my case I just wish my partner would have just said to me "look....I'm BP and this isn't going to be easy....but I will love you and I will do all I can to try to maintain...and when I don't maintain....I'm going to love you more for understanding."
As for the family, I think everyone in the family knows, maybe they are just waiting for you to tell them that you know. The kids are going to need your understanding when they get older. So, stay there and keep doing what you need to do to survive. Take the meds and see the doc and raise your head up high and realize that you are truely special.