Mary Alice,
I'm glad to see you posting again, I'll admit that I was a bit concerned when you didn't aswer my pm, but I'm sure you've been getting an outpouring from everyone here because we all care about you so much. I'm not here to judge you. I have nothing but the utmost respect for you being able to be so honest to your T despite the content of what you had to tell him. I wish I had the integrity/strength to do that. All too often I find myself backing down and sugar-coating my feelings and ideations. I can't imagine how hard it was for you to tell him these things, even about threatening to change doctors. It is obvious that your T really does care for you and is not just trying to keep his hands clean. And although I'm sure it's hard to hear/believe, I really think you are worth every bit of care and love you are given both here and by people such as your T. It can't be a nice position to be put in, but I have faith in you. I'm not going to try and convince you that either is right, but I sure do know that'd I'd be real lonely on this boat all by myself. You've gone above and beyond in helping me, and I;m willing to do the same if you want darling.
*XOXO*
-Kelly-