i have felt that way pretty much my whole life. when i was in middle school i read books a lot. probably read 3 or 4 books a week. now i wish i could keep my attention on a book long enough to read one chapter so if you can read one in a couple months be glad you did. i too dont have anything to say when im asked about my hobbies or what i do for fun. i just say "nothing really" but telling them i have depression and dont even want to get out of bed most days isnt what i want to say. my son doesnt want me to be like this either but all i can do is take my meds and hopefully have the courage to go to counseling someday so i can enjoy life again. but my anxiety kicks in everytime i pull in the parking lot but dont go inside because talking to a stranger face to face about myself scares me. so dont be so hard on yourself and think your such a loser because the longer you do the harder its gonna be gto get up and keep going. im a cute normal size woman and i get compliments daily and i have a 7 year old that thinks im wonderful but somehow i cant see what they see and its a lonely life feeling that way because then you isolate yourself from the world as much as possible and i bet the world is a bettwer place with 5you in it. keep reading those books!