Radio, that this is tearing you up and wearing down your self confidence is clear from what you are saying. you don't have to apologize for how you are writing. You don't have to run yourself down to us. That's the years of living with men like AJ talking. He can't even own up to his own bullying and smashing things up to being the reason to your calling his dad. What does he think? That you are supposed to sit and take it and be afraid of him. That that is the natural way of things in his head.

I'm sorry that I am being harsh, dear, but his behavior has me mad enough to eat tacks and spit nails right now. You get help to deal with someone bigger than you and now you are a b%&/? Please make sure that you can get someone who can help you if gets violent, be there very quickly if need be. Keep a cell on you if need be with that person's number on speed dial. Change the locks when he leaves. Right now, he thinks with the alcohol, not his brain. Dear Radio flyer, be safe. HUGGGGSSSSS