{{{{{{{{Kelly}}}}}}}}}

I wasn't ignoring you, hun, really. I've been trying to keep a low profile and stay out of everyone's hair - but it hasn't been working too well. Your PM was just as important as anyone else's but I have been staying at work alot more to stay safe.

I'm realizing that my relationship with my T is different than most people have with theirs. Even my pdoc was amazed that I have access to him 24/7 if I need to - his answering service has strict instructions to get ahold of him when I call, the same at his office.

I am not able to lie to people - goes against me so strongly that I just don't respond. If pushed I answer honestly. My T knows this about me - I would never deceive him because he is so very important to me. He has a great deal of influence on me.

I'm still trying to find a loophole in this situation. My only other choice is to lie to him over the phone........this morning I was thinking : lie to him vs. stay alive. Even if I could get the lie past my lips, it would be even harder to keep my tone of voice normal while he quizzed me. I haven't decided yet what I'm going to do.

Thank you for your caring. You are very special to me because of our "bond" and I know how difficult that boat can be when you are all alone in it.

Regardless of how I am, you know you can always talk to me if you need to. Please take care of yourself and have a good holiday.

xoxoxo

Mary Alice