((((((((Lex)))))))))) I'm sorry, I didn't come to the Self Injury section yesterday, so I didn't see your posts or I would have responded sooner.
Lex,please don't think that with the cutting yourself up and hanging yourself-you made me cringe big time. (My brother-in-law had hung himself. ) I'm okay though, so don't feel bad. It just sent a bad chill down my spine.

Can you pinpoint what it is that's setting these feelings off?
Not all men are terrible creatures. I know you don't want to hear that right now but it's true.
I believe there are a lot more good men then mean and bad men.
Unfortunately, you've had some pretty sleazy men in your life.
Cutting yourself up or hanging yourself is not going to justify anything and all it's going to do is hurt the one good man in your life you've written to us about and that's your Dad.

Why punish the good man in your life? Why punish yourself?
Please, stay safe. We're here.
If BF is the problem then you've got to move on. Try to find a non-romantic female room mate then take time to pull yourself together and then think about co-habitating with a romantic partner.
((((((((Lex))))))))) Thought you could use an extra hug.