He just seems so distant in addition to not wanting to touch me. I feel like he has a shell around himself and that getting him to touch me is the only way to break through. Of course, I am now thinking that the harder I try to break through, the thicker the shell will become. Maybe it is time to just go do my thing and just be co-parents, as I have said before. Then I won't keep getting hurt.

Time to go develop my own interests, happiness and life and stop waiting for him to want to join me. Then maybe he'll begin to examine things and have room to develop himself instead of spending so much time rebuilding pieces of shell that I keep picking off.