I can relate, Sail. It's like if you script what she is supposed to do and say, how can it be coming from her? Maybe allow her a chance to do whatever she is going to do the first time you cry or have a panic attack. Maybe she'll surprise you and be better than you expected. If she falls short, like doesn't physically reach out, you could always clarify then. I know the touch business in T is all over the place from no way ever to frequent hugging.