i feel the same way. i'm in my second year and i might lose my scholarship and have to drop out if i don't pick things up this semester. luckily i'm close to my family but you can video chat with them. i just taught my mom how to use skype lol. Honestly you just have to suck it up and do what you have to do. even if you feel like you're gunna throw up you just got to go for it. it's what i always do