(((((sunrise)))))

I think it's sad that you had to walk home alone at age 4. I also get that the conversation with your parents about it was healing for you. My T also says that we know what we need to heal.

I'm sorry you've felt hesitant to post your feelings here because there are no "shoulds" when it comes to feelings. I think it's wonderful that you have forgiven your mother.

I also think that a month is too long to wait to see your T. What happened is very powerful and important. I hope you can find a way to see him sooner.