So I am in a rut and can't get out.

Seriously.

I don't know what to do. I keep getting in stupid arguments with everyone and I feel like I am going nuts.

Everyone says I seem better but I do not feel better - I mean I do not feel like myself.

Small improvements, that's it. And it has been a year.

I am worried about school. I am not going back until Sept. But I am worrying because I have never been as dysfunctional as I am right now in my life.

So much has happened to me in 3 years and I am getting really upset. In 4 years in college I blew through 120 credits easily and never had any problems.

Since then, my parents moved, I was sick for 9 mo (physically), which caused me to have to leave school, started back again. Was there for 8 mo, no problems, then the "good friend/former neighbor" I was living with unexpectedly sold her house (after 50 years in the same place), at the same time I met V, abusive relationship, court stuff, stayed in school through all of if but....

I had to cut my courseload in the summer it happened, had to take 2 incompletes from the spring, never found an internship, and eventually went to court and now I am like this.....

How can I not be upset? I have earned only 27 graduate credits in 3.5 years and I have been through 2 nightmares - one lasting 9 mo and the other lasting 9 mo until I left school.

Now I am dealing with hating where I live - I am so confused, I feel like my life is constantly being turned upside down and I do not know what to do.