I am taking meds- they have been changed 5 times since June- I am on Depakote and Celexa. I am feeling like a test subject at this point lol. To day is a little better I have scheduled an appt with my pdoc for 2:15 today. I am going to ask her to refer me to a t that she trusts bc the ones where I live are not very helpful. I am trying to get on a routine but my brain will not shut down for me to go to sleep at a decent time. There are a lot of stressors in my life right now I am sure that is not helping at all. I have in a way given up on trying to fix the situation bc I feel like my strength to fight is gone. And then there are days like today where out of nowhere I get up make an appointment and am ready to grab the bull by the horns and try to get help. Thank you all for understanding where I am at. It is nice to have found ppl who do not take me for a monster and try to make me feel worse than I already do!