I know exactly what you are going through since I've been cutting for about 15 years now. I don't know about cutting being worth it or not since I really don't think about that aspect of it, never have.

Anyways, the best advice I can give is to keep your hands, body, and mind as busy as possible. I have to write, type, do puzzles, clean, etc., when I want to cut. It has to be a constant thing for me. So maybe trying this may help.

Hang in there and stay safe.