Don't know where to go for help! There are really no 12 step programs that deal with this specific addiction (that I'm aware of) and I just need some support!! I have gotten off of this med before, but the 3 weeks it took to finally rid my system of it was more than I can even think about. I have a family, a job, and LOTS of responsibilities, and to get off again means to absolutely crash for at least the first week, maybe more. Which means I can't do this without anyone's knowledge...and those closest to me do not know I ever began taking this med again. Needless to say, I think they will have a hard time understanding WHY I would get into this position again (because I wonder too!), and will not want to be supportive. No one in my family seems to understand ADD/ADHD or addictions, or the link between the two. My personality has changed so drastically and I just need to quit taking this med and STAY AWAY FROM IT, but how?!?!? So scared and lonely, and so tired of hiding!