For those of you who have done (or regularly do) 2-hour sessions, what are they like?

I've only been seeing T for a couple of months, but I'm already feeling compelled to tell her some details about CSA. I don't feel pressured by her....it's more that the longer I DON'T tell, the worse I feel, the more shame I feel keeping it secret. And I think it would help her to help me better if she knew some things. Just the basics, really.

I told her that I want to tell her but that I'm not sure how. I'm worried she won't believe me. I'm worried she'll say it was no big deal. Or she'll say it was horrible. All of it scares me.

She is really reassuring. She says she has no agenda or timeline. She says I don't ever have to tell if I don't feel safe.

I just know I have to tell. For my own self-care, I have to share a bit of the secret and let go of some of the shame so that we can move forward and work on things in the here and now.

T suggested we do a 2-hour session so that I can take my time to tell...But I've never done a long session before. What is it like??

I think I just want it to feel 100% okay to tell, and it never feels 100% safe, you know? Even the most safe people, like my old T, I was still terrified to tell. Yet, in the end, I'm so glad I did...

Ugh. Why can't any of this be easier?