Your post caught my eye because I was just thinking how I wish I could stop my brain from going in every direction at the speed of light. Boy, do I know that feeling. But about relationships, I have a wonderful husband who says that I am the funnest crazy person he's ever met, and he was a psych attendent (not mine). Anyway, just an example that there are wonderful people who understand and support without it being a big deal. When things are really bad he always reminds me that everything will be fine. I haven't tried herbals, but have been lucky to get started in the beginning on meds that work well. I just use the forums to help me throught the waiting. And that sounds like something that would be good for you right now is to remind yourself that you are waiting and things will work out fine.