I fought medication for years. Sometimes I would give in and try it, but I never really gave it a chance. My therapist and MD both felt that I could benefit from some type of meds. I finally gave in, as long as I was taking the smallest amount I could. Just enough to take the edge of off things.

I think it has helped me. Or at least my family thinks it has. Many times we can't see the changes, but those around us can. Like you, I want to work on the issue, not take medication to numb me from it. I have to ask myself these questions: Are my issues because of a chemical imbalance that causes me to be irrational in my thoughts? Or are the issues I am having causing me to feel sad, lonely, depressed, and anxious?

This is not an easy fix. There are pros and cons to therapy, as well as pros and cons to medications. I guess we just have to somehow find that balance that works for us. That is not easy at all and can be so frustrating! I know how you feel.