Hypo-Mania has started coming down to a more okish level.

I was at GP's today and she has said if I was working she would be telling me to take time off. Luckily I am off work lol. I am to start following a better routine which is completely lacking as I work shift work and struggle for sleep most of the time. I am to lay off alcohol. I am to stop talking to the 7 guys from England and DO NOT UNDER NO CIRUMSTANCES MAKE ARRANGEMENTS TO HEAD TO ENGLAND TO MEET THESE GUYS. I am also seeing a CPN on Friday so she is happy with that. She has said she will speak to Psych and see if we can introduce a mild sedative for my complete non exsitent sleep. I have to do more exercise, eat more and take better care of myself.

What I didn't tell her was that I have had random weird dreams and 1 about my ex counsellor trying to stop me doing something stupid. Unsure where that one came from. Also I have stopped taking my 10pm med as its just not doing anything to me. I have started taking it again after my friend got on to me and told me I had to and to not make decisions like this without taking to my GP and Psych.

I am really anxious about seeing CPN on Friday its a he so unsure how that will be as I find it hard sometimes talking to guys. Especially face:face. My friend said if this happens then write down what I need to say and hand it to him and that way I am not verbalising everything.

I am not tired AGAIN this is the 14th night in a row I am WIDE AWAKE its just before Midnight. I was up until 5am this morning. I just get hyper at night for some strange weird random reason.

I am going to the Citizen's Advice Bureau tomorrow to see about work etc I am a bit worried about that as I am gonna have to tell strangers I am ill.

Kinda feel "happy/buzzed speeded up" you all know the drill

Is this all normal feelings to have or am I maybe too manic for my own good or am I just a weirdo hahaha!!!!!!!