Hello,

I totally identify with your post. I too have lost so many jobs due to absences and believing I'm above or below the job. They never complained about my work, just that I didn't show up reliably. So in essence, I was a "flake" in their minds.
I am always hoping that my depression and anxiety will improve enough where I will be able to maintain a job and normal lifestyle instead of the poor situation I am in now.
The vocational rehab program sounds good. I would tell them exactly what is your passion, your dream job. Then hopefully they can find something that you can work in that uses at least a fraction of what interests you.
I think that even if you get a job and it is not the creative outlet or experience that you want, you need to find something creative in the area that you like outside of your job, as a hobby. That way, no matter what you are still able to be creative and show your artistic self.

Z