I have asked him many times, wrote him letters sending them by mail, even wrote with WORD on the computer knowing he will see it first thing in the morning before he goes to work, heck I have asked, tried, done every thing I know what to do. He has been acting like this for a very long time now. He claims to love me, tonight he came home holding me tight until I almost passed out couldn't breathe, but he didn't say anything, just held me. Yet still, I am very afraid to trusting he will continue because he always tells me he is sorry and withing a day or two we are right back in the same sinking ship. He WONT go to a Dr. I asked. He just tells me he holds things in, that is just his way of coping. And I reply with the ...when you do that Michael it makes me feel unwanted etc. etc.

I don't know what's going to happen. I took back the ring I gave him last night and was so MAD that I told him....I gave you my heart and you know what Michael, you don't deserve it when you make me feel so unwanted and as if I am taking to much of your time or when we DO have a special time alone having fun some one calls needing some thing and you leave me here, alone making me feel like I come in last before all others in your life.

Hope that answered some questions. I know there is no miracle answers y'all can give to me. I just needed to vent before I hurt him. ( that was a joke, well...maybe. ) Seriously, I wouldn't physically hurt him, but leaving him I may just do and if I do that I hope it rips his heart out so he will understand how I feel. Anger isn't the answer either I know. Just the moment I am in for now.