thanks for the replies guys ..
yeah being around friends or doing stuff to distract myself is usually the answer ..but then i get the thought this is jus a distraction, lifes just passing by so quickly, time flies, and very soon i'll lose all the people i love ..thoughts like that, theyre depressing but they're true arent they, i just feel so guilty for all the ways ive been a bad daughter/friend/sister and trying to fix all those things seems so hopeless coz ive done so many bad things, it seems impossible to make it up to all the people ive hurt ..and they're gonna be taken away from me soon ..just dont know what to do