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Originally Posted by Squiggle328
Even though I did have a great session this week, (YAY!) sometimes I wonder if therapy is a bunch of crock. Nonsense. Do you ever wonder if you are just talking yourself into thinking that your life is going to be different one day? Is therapy really going to help me change my thinking, let go of my past, and begin to see a brighter future?
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During the course of my >decade long therapy (with several different therapists) I certainly had many, many times when I thought therapy was a bunch of crock and I was deluding myself into thinking that anything would ever be any different. On the other side of it now, however, I *know* that it isn't, and that it can change one's thinking, help to let go of the past, and LIVE a better future. I could definitely benefit from more therapy yet, but I am done (content) for now. I would never, ever want to go back to the living hell of my pre-therapy days.
I came from an extremely abusive background where I was s* abused by three members of my immediate family, and emotionally and physically abused as well. Pre-therapy I was a hopeless wreck with DID, severe depression, frequent SU tendencies, and with negative educational and vocational consequences for my frequent acting out. For the first two years of therapy I was too afraid to speak.
After therapy I am happy, content, emotionally stable, assertive, strong, and self-nurturing. None of that would be possible without therapy. Therapy changed the course of my life, without a doubt. I embrace my past -all of it. Without it I would not be who I am today, and I LIKE who I am. I wouldn't change a thing.