Thanks!.....I know my T is trying to make sure I'm safe, and this is the thing that she was concentrating really hard on at the moment. The frustration for me I suppose is just feeling like we needed to be working more on the thing, the memory, the hurt that triggered this SI stuff....sitting around talking about medication, hospitalization, etc., wasn't precisely helping heal the re-opened wound right now! I understand she was being practical, and also responsible in making sure I was/am both physically and mentally safe first.....and I understand she wasn't ignoring the trigger or the underlying wounds/emotions that got stirred up. Yet, instead of spending a session talking about how to be safe, I wanted to talk about the thing that stirred up all this SI stuff right now, all this hurt....I felt like I left with the wound still open.....hence the frustration, or feeling like being stuck in a rut, or a holding pattern (of crisis).....
But I understand that the SI stuff, the outer manifestations of the inner hurts, is what had to be taken of first.....she has to make sure I am safe.