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Wolfsong, i understand what you wrote. I understand some of your mistakes and regrets. I even understand the desire to end it all. I just do not understand how we both can feel so vile inside and smile and support others on the outside. i doubt anyone would get why i did it if i did. i seem so happy. At least every now and then...we you and me and others can let it out....scream to the roof tops.....and never say a word at the same time.
If you do not mind, i will join you: i am a bloody hypocrite....a fake....and i am too stupid to figure out how to make this existence meaningful....but...maybe tomorrow i will get an idea....maybe. Sadly i am not a momma. But i try to be a good friend. i bet i am reviewing my life in a negative way that i need to improve upon. Well tomorrow is another day. So back to the grind stone....
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